Sure Got a Dirty Mouth Chapter 15: Go to Sleep

[justinedelarge]

Title: Sure Got a Dirty Mouth Chapter 15: Go to Sleep

Author: justinedelarge
Fandom: Supernatural
Pairing(s): Sam/Dean
Rating: R
Warning: Wincest (Sam is a few months shy of legal age)
Word Count: 1000
Disclaimer: I own nothing except my original characters and plot.
Summary: Sam is brought home, and Dean needs to get him to take a really deep breath.

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Dean carried Sam up the stairs and went to lay him in bed. Sam tapped his arm and nodded toward the bathroom.  Dean set Sam down in front of the bathroom door and helped him walk inside. “You ok by yourself?”

Sam gave him a look that said he’d have to be a damn sight more broken to require Dean’s help taking a piss.

“I’ll wait by our room. Knock when you’re through.”

Sam was in the room a long while.

He finally knocked, and Dean came to get him. When Sam opened the door, Dean swore at the sight of him, pale and sweating, and caught him before he swayed and fell over.

He carried him to the bedroom and settled him into bed as carefully as he could,  but Sam still cried out in pain, jerking his broken arm in close to his body and rocking himself, breathing shallow and quick.

“Oh god, Sam.” Dean was on the verge of tears. “I’m sorry.”

When the pain had subsided, Sam reached up his good hand and touched Dean’s face.

“You want to get some sleep, Sammy?”

Sam tapped once, lightly, for yes.

Dean thought for a moment, remembering what it was like when he’d cracked a rib on his first hunt with John. It was easiest for him to sleep when he was on his injured side, oddly enough, because it let the uninjured side expand better so he could breathe with less pain. But Sam’s ribs were bruised on the right side too. Still, probably better for him to try to sleep on the left side at first.

He also remembered how agonizing it was to try to change positions. Shifting more to his front or back caused sharp stabbing pain.

So he came up with a plan, and presented it to Sam. He explained the reasoning behind having Sam sleep on his left, and Sam nodded ok, so exhausted it broke Dean’s heart to see it.

At Dean’s instruction, he relaxed completely and let Dean roll him, very slowly, very carefully, onto that side, settling the broken arm into place.

Dean, fully dressed, climbed on top of the bed and settled in behind Sam. “I’m gonna lay here with you, Sammy. Make sure you don’t move in your sleep and hurt yourself, ok? And if you need to change position, you just whisper it to me.” Sam made a soft sound. “I know, you’re not supposed to talk, but the notepad thing isn’t going to work for this. Just whisper “back” or “stomach” and I’ll move you, ok? You just stay completely relaxed and let me do it for you, ok?”

Sam reached for Dean’s hand, laying on top of his hip, and pulled it across his chest, brought Dean’s hand to his mouth and kissed it. Then he held it to his chest.

“This good?”

Sam nodded.

“Can you do one thing for me?”

Another nod.

“Can you take a deep breath?”

Sam tried. He pulled more air into his lungs, and stiffened.

Dean stroked Sam’s chest and nestled closer. “I know, baby boy. Hurts so bad. I remember. But you need to. Can you try again for me?”

And at that, Dean stopped. Remembered what he had said to Sam before he was taken. Treated Sam like a child. Refused to do what Sam wanted from him more than anything, because of a ridiculous notion he had in his head that Sam wasn’t mature enough to handle certain things. Worse, he’d basically called him a slut. Jesus, Sammy. Are you that fucking desperate for it? Said and done those things, and Sam had gotten so mad at him. So hurt. And with reason. And because he was so mad and hurt, he stayed behind when Dean talked John into letting Sam come on the hunt. And because of that (and because of what John had done, but that was a whole dark well of anger he wasn’t ready to deal with yet) Sam was left all alone, unprotected. And they took him. And hurt him. Hurt him in ways Dean couldn’t think about. So scared and alone, enduring terrible pain, with those words practically the last thing he’d Dean had said to him, still echoing in his head when he went to find some memory of love, some reason to keep enduring it. Jesus, Sammy. Are you that fucking desperate for it?

Dean buried his face in Sam’s hair, sleek and shining now, and took a breath. “Sam,” he whispered. “After… after what I did. What I said. I don’t have the right to ask you to do anything for me. I know that.” He stopped, trying to keep it together. “You must just hate me for that. And Christ, I’d take it back if I could.”

Sam brought Dean’s hand to his lips again, exhaled against the crook of his thumb. “Shhh.”

“No, I need to say it. Sam, I—“

Sam did it again. “Shhh.” He moved Dean’s hand down, held it to his diaphragm. And then Sam exhaled. Paused. And drew in a deep, shuddering breath.

Dean’s fingers flared against the edges of his rib cage, feeling it expand. Sam held his breath, shaking, then stroked his fingers over Dean’s, and inhaled even more deeply.

He held his breath for a long moment, then exhaled. His whole body trembled.

“That was so good. You did so good.” Dean kissed the back of Sam’s neck. “Jesus, Sam. You’re so brave.” He held Sam until his trembling eased, and he drifted into desperately-needed sleep. And he held Sam some more, until he also fell asleep.

Neither of them woke up when Bobby cracked the door open and stuck his head inside. “Made some soup, you boys want—“ He saw the two of them, curled together like cats.

The expression on his face was soft as he turned his head and, ever so quietly, shut the door.

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Comments

[sammichgirl]

HOW do you do that? This is so very lovely. I'm really enjoying all the different ways you're showing us that Sam and Dean love each other.

Sam is very brave. And determined to show Dean he's grown up, I think, and that he trusts him. He may have been angry at Dean before, but he's in love with him. And Dean is Sam's hero.

Bobby. Gosh, I love him.

[imaginecoolname.livejournal.com]

I've just recently discovered this series and I'm absolutely loving it! I really enjoy it becoming more plotty and expanding into less porny areas - although of course I definitely enjoy those, too! But this is becoming more rounded that way and hurt/comfort and tender caretaking is a sure way to suck me in even more. :) Looking forward to more!

hey

[leighannwallace.livejournal.com]

I love this story and I love love love this chapter!

[jesaku.livejournal.com]

more, more, more

but please, don't abuse any more vegetables ;-) when the boys finaly get to the sex part

[kinkajou.livejournal.com]

it's funny how this verse used to get me always eager for more because of the ever-increasing hotness, and now it makes me want more of hurt/comfort, and loving, awesome Dean, and brave Sam, and... basically it seems that I want MORE of THIS Sam and Dean, whatever happens to them, with or without porn, just MOOORE!!! :D

[jcrgirl.livejournal.com]

I'm one of those people that read and rarely comment, but I wanted you to know who ridiculously happy it makes me to see this story pop up. I truly adore this story!

[lgmkeefer.livejournal.com]

Dear Lord,
I can't. This fic is too perfect.

[venusadvincula.livejournal.com]

Just keep going with this. I'm loving that the depth of their love for each other is being shown and that it is equal to if not more profound than the depth of their lust for each other. Of course I love how wonderful Dean is with Sammy and what a fantastic care giver he is, it just shows how much he cares for his brother and how complex their relationship is.

[deansdirtybb.livejournal.com]

Oh my goodness, Dean getting so teary with all the guilt and then Bobby's reaction to them - such a wonderfully emotional update.

[jespretender.livejournal.com]

Lovely, realistically tender and a great chapter.

[deezy-y.livejournal.com]

Oh the guilt...classic Dean. I'm sure that Dean's love is actually what got Sam through that nightmare.

[justinedelarge.livejournal.com]

Yes. If it's not quivering with guilt, it's not Dean. :)

[deezy-y.livejournal.com]

So true.

[lilithrain.livejournal.com]

Oh my God, that is just so gorgeous. Oh I've got all warm and fuzzies thanks to that last bit with Bobby.

[justinedelarge.livejournal.com]

Yay! I'm so glad.